Its been a long road to here and the path has been tiring with lots of talks. When one person is doing the talking and trying to figuring out where you are going. I am tired now and finished, I figured out this is not where I want to be. I will not be here with who I thought, I am looking in the mirror and am not the attractive person I thought I was. My heart is in it, but I am tired, the journey is over, and I thank you for the conversation. I thank you for the laughs, I thank you for sharing your thoughts, I thank you for sharing your time. That's the largest gift anyone can give, time, it cannot be returned, only shared, with memories. I'm tired now, I can't think of any more ways to ask you to share yourself, my friend. You have been my friend for in my heart, and I would give my life for you. Ask anything of me, ask anything that I need to do for you, I will without hesitation step up.
You're guarded and hold back, I understand, protect yourself and wait for just the right person. It's not me, you will know when it is the right person, so late in life and it's not me, how long much longer do I have to wait. I was there for you twenty years ago, thirty years ago, but is that even fair to say what the circumstances are that stopped you. I know what they are, fear, freedom of choice, I was ready, you were not.
I sit around looking at this person who bought me here to this place, I visualize and they didn't want me to remain. They used me for just one purpose, things were said, promises not kept, but in their words, they were not promises. Just words and words that were forgotten, I have told a story over and over again to protect you. I have written that story for the last time, I am not going to tell that story again. I will tell this honestly from the beginning before the next person ask me what happened and how I got here. I'm not going to tell another lie or ask me what happened.
They were words, I kept hearing the same thing over and over again, I didn't say that. I didn't say that I know what I heard, I know what I felt, I know what I strive for in every move I make. I never make a step towards someone without understanding that I have to guard myself. There's that word again, guard, protect yourself, hold back, keep some words to yourself, keep some secrets, keep certain thoughts to yourself.
Keep yourself in check, this is not going to work out, the moods change, concessions are made, you cant be yourself. I'm flexible but not that bendable in that many directions for just a sip of water. I want long term commitment for days, months and the year to the end of this year. I see the world differently than most people and want things simple. Walk with me, talk about your day, your emotional needs, how did you see that today, how will you feel about that with this coming at you.
Very in-depth, very thought provoking if you want to expend some energy into a relationship, or do you. Do you want just to walk this earth with your head in the sand or in the clouds, which is it? Not seeing, or seeing and feeling with someone holding your hand and caressing your cheek. Someone with the passion for life you feel with every word and every breath they take, crisp and clear
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