Need or needy FINE LINE

There’s a fine line to need and needy. I need this to being needy. You can whine and be whiney there’s a fine line. You want to be with gives you your emotional support at that time. Sometimes you go to far and you need a time limit. That’s when you get needy. Your friends back off and drift away because you become to needy. They cannot give the energy you need. You whine and become whiney about the subject. Fine line between need and needy. You want a hug but you become clingy. But why does this happen. You crave the attention and you ache inside just a hug with some emotion attached to it. I have been told I am to intense and need to be more light. I look at life with intensity everyday my thoughts are there and I catch myself thinking about my friendships. Through the years the people I have I met the energy and the intensity of thought I given them. They needed my full attention and full effective listening skills. Wisdom is through life events, failures and achievements. However, in your life when energy and emotionally lows come to need them you become needy. Because you have never been the needy one. My body aches for an emotionally hug. It’s needy. It’s clingy. Because it’s not me. So stay alone and and be silent. Or lash out and reaction so wordy it can’t be written or spoken without your friends saying I don’t understand. You see the look in their eyes or hear it in their voice, and you change the topic. You had one person in your life that got it and now there gone. I search for that person to fill a void in me, I have become needy. I had achieved my successes in life and now I have to find another without becoming a needy person. I want to share it with my new friends and older friends. Achieve a new success with their support and I need them, but I don’t know how to ask.